finally have time to update! RHOC has finally reduced me into a pimply shapeless nobody with bad hair and everything negative! been sleeping over in the rhoc room almost 3/4 of the week and i’m already missing my hall bed and real bed! so orientation’s coming, and the real thing is just beginning. i really enjoy making those props and painting banners (though i always screw them up!) and the camaderie between all the RHOCers. yay!

2 more weeks to camp, and 1 more day to seniors camp. lets all pray and keep our fingers crossed that everything will be fine!

here’s to a portion of those who live and breathe rhoc (rock) and who loves mac for their cool settings!

(wendy mummy [my god mum!], twinnnnn and me!)

(yay extended family!)

TWINNNNNNNN!!!

(this is TOTALLY AWESOME! fun! chunping looks scary in this!)

(wah, yiling, pehpeh, twinnnnn and me!)

some more nicer ones are in pehpeh’s mac! ahhh gonna get them soon from her!

these are the fundementals that we have to deal with everyday. from minor to major decisions, we’ll have to go through the decision making process in making sure your choices are good.

yesterday, i just made a very drastic decision. my close friends would know what the decision is. im sure this is the right choice and it is something which would benefit me in the long run.

today, i am going to make a decision which may change my life somehow, depending on how i am going to put myself through the test. throughout my growing years, i’ve been presented with chances to accept Him. from my close relatives, to my teachers, and my friends.. every stage of my life is filled with chances and opportunities. when i was young, i didnt have the maturity to decide. i probably fell out of it because i was not committed. then when i was a teenager, i didnt have the courage to enter that sort of environment and commit. so when i was a young adult, i was convinced that i didnt need Him in my life because i was capable of ruling my own. i also thought that it was superficial that i wanted to accept because i needed to accept. but now, i’m having mixed feelings. definitely, practising the faith has been on my mind since i was young. either i was too scared to commit or… i dont know. i am a commitment phobe. and i dont know why i am confused over having such a choice.

in any case, i’ll gonna just let myself in for this time. just once, then i’ll see how it goes.

choices…
decisions…

i dont know.. really..

currently in rhoc room with cp next to me playing dota, listening in float’s meeting and getting distracted from doing up my minutes for last meeting. thats what sai kang ppl do! LOL!

and around 4 hours plus later, i’m back in the same place after a hearty supper of tissue prata and mee goreng sambal and SUPER DUPER NICE MILO DINOSAUR! i swear i nvr really liked milo dinosaur but this one at bukit timah really had my tastebuds satisfied! no wonder i gained back the weight i lost from vietnam with all these good food!

yay met up with 2 favourite people on saturday! ok sounds little but still, i met my friends! really really great reprieve from hall life, not that hall life isnt good, i really enjoy the companionship of my fellow hall friends. they really bring joy and laughter to my life and with them i can just forget all my troubles! (yes troubles of all sorts!) but anyway back to the main point!

my 2 favourite girls! they’re just so cute with their actions can!

favourite girl! we were damn lucky to be able to get seats at starbucks on a saturday and its sofa seats mind you!

thats about a few of the nicest pictures that i took! and the ones i took with jas arent present cos she hasnt sent me them! better send them to me jas!!!!

and yes it paid off!!!!!!

/edit:

i just did something STUPID!! URGHH!! stupid dumb ass!!!

a key essential ingredient in the many things that we do in life.

in RHOC, i’ve learnt the importance of persevering in your own beliefs (as long as it is justifiable) and to be persistinly strong emotionally to deal with the stress and whatsnot.

maybe its time i learn to apply it in a more emotional manner, to persevere till the end. there’s a problem with this though. either i end up being happy with the end result, or i end up with nothing but dissapointment. but so far my perseverance has been going strong, for 24 hours and counting..

pardon me if im writing in a rather incoherent manner. my brain isnt really functioning right now.

回憶它讓我富有　思念卻讓我貧窮

your memories made me affluent..
but its the very longing for you which left me penniless..

if you could ever understand that sentence in chinese, then it would be great. its hard to translate it in

english. but i’ve tried my very best and i hope its okay and the meaning is there!

wanted to blog about something on the heartstrings but i’ve decided that it’s probably too depressing a post. actually, its not really VERY depressing but more of deep thoughts. however, i’ve been blogging about really sad stuff in my opinion so i should totally discontinue that pattern of blogging about depressing stuff..

went to sentosa with the girls in the afternoon after a great night of sleep! was late for a grand total of 1 hour! really bad! sorry claudine! took many photos and rekindled the love for volleyball. after that it was heading to geylang for great food! and yes, we were late for around 1 hour as well. thats what you get when you put 3 girls together. =)

back to great food, it was practically a food marathon yst! first stop, it was beef hor fun! tasted really great! the beef is totally tender and nice! friends, we should all go geylang for food ok! and after that was a short walk along the streets to see the sights. i must say the guys seem to be afraid of being approached and jon insisted that i walk with him even though i wanted him to walk in front so that i could see the more interesting things. hah.

next was stop for durian! the durian that we ate was kind of horrible and it certain pales in comparison with the one dad bought for $24. that durian was the most heavenly one cos i ate it when i came back from vietnam and any local food is heaven. that particular durian left a stinking smell on my fingers for days and gave me the ultimate cough for at least a week! see how powerful it is? well was kind of disappointed with the durian at geylang. its alright! we’ll go there for better durians!

from left: leanne (xiao gua!), jess, claudine (roomie!!!), weizheng (small), jon kwok, me, and esther! (bff!)
not in photo: renkang (qi zai who hates durians and therefore acts as the photographer cos he doesnt eat durians and therefore is not qualified to be in the durian picture! ) and chia hou (siow papa! who had some stomach upset and for some reason doesnt eat durian as well… )

after durians, it was a long walk to the tau huay stall.. was too satiated from the beef hor fun and durian to even drink the tao huay. thought it was ok only.. maybe i was too full! but nonetheless, i had a fun outing with my hall ppl!

sometimes i just feel so suffocated by all these things happening around me. like every week i have a new issue to contend with within myself.

sometimes all these things get so irritating and it just makes me feel like shouting and screaming and just leave everything behind.

sometimes it gets too overwhelming you just wanna shut yourself up and move into solidarity.

sometimes i just dont know what to do..

i see it all so clearly.

what people can do behind your backs.

smiley faces.

that’s the shit right there.

gonna watch my back, and be mindful of whatever that comes out of my mouth.

its okay.

keep a positive mindset!

things will be alright as long as you have a guilt free conscious!

we’re heading to a small small island of our own!

sunshine girls on the bumpy boat ride! yuko, me and esther!

now with yiling as well! we’re the emo pictures gang!

on top of the world!

what’s that in the sky?

kelvin’s top to bottom view of us and the beautiful scenery behind us. it’s really pretty!!

yuko: let’s all act retarded!
kelvin: huh? still need to act one meh?

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yiling, eileen, me, yuko, esther, liping!

cute graffiti at the coconut place! it was the first time i actually drank alot of coconut even though im not a big fan of it. its really refreshing!

awesome view that esther caught on her camera! sony camera ok!

we’re on the top of ubin!

my WOOOOOOOSHHHH bike! weathered through the rocks and bumpy slopes!

esther’s dad and my RD advisor! super lor sor jiun haw! the guy staring at us is ah ji JJ! and liping cant be bothered!!

my PAPA! kah onn! warui kodomo i am says he… ):

and we’re on our way home..

there are alot more pictures taken with kelvin’s damn ZAI camera! hopefully they’ll be nice! ubin reminds me of vietnam, the houses, greenery and the overall feel. but its still not the same. well at least it was a great outing with the rhocers!